A Birthmother's Journey

This is the journey that begins when the author is a teenager and continues during the reunion with the son she gave up 32 years ago.

Location: Portland, Oregon, United States

I am the natural mother of two sons one, age 32 and the other age 18 and stepmother of two sons.I had to start this after my oldest son found me in July of this year after 32 years. It is one heck of a rollercoaster ride but we plan on meeting face to face in November.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

My Spiral Into The Depths of My Own Personal Hell

The day I signed the papers and conned David into it became what I call the beginning of my downward spiral into my own personal hell. I hated myself, hated who I was and what I had become. I was no longer that bright sunny girl anymore-I was worthless, a person who had given away a baby- and I knew more about life than other girls my age.

So I started drinking heavy and doing every illegal drug known to modern man! David and I had split up which was good, but I became the ultimate "BAD GIRL" I didn't care anymore either. I did keep asking about the baby and when he was about 6 months old, they told me his name was Duane Alan. My caseworker told me it was because they wanted me to stop asking questions about him.


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